Jewell it took me awhile for my disability so don't give up and it will be worth it when you get your back pay. I was scared too. If you don't get it the first time please keep trying. A lot of people do. I pray that you will be fortunate like me and get it the first time but SSD and SSI are different and I think SSI is easier to get. I think about you and your SSI every day. I wish you the best of luck. You know I love you.